I was sitting here looking around my apartment because I was in a funk earlier today. Feeling down. Feeling less than. Feeling unloved. Feeling like my world was crumbling.
You see. For the past two weeks, things have not been all peaches and cream – heck more like Cheetos and pickles with a side of all fat mayonnaise.
Over my last 30-awesome years – I have had over 35 jobs. I have done everything from car detailing to bartending to retail store manager to paralegal to cheer-leading coach to nanny to you name it.
Nothing stuck. Obviously.
Instead. I became a Queen of all trades and I was deemed the lady who could do it all. I mean I could right?
Today while sitting on the couch, I felt the shift. Something is happening and I cannot explain it. But I know in my heart the earth beneath my feet is about to shake.
And you want to know why? Because I live a ridiculously amazing life.
I have raised (and still raising) a black son from cradle to college to be a human who makes the world a better place with his genius, his ability to twerk, and his patience with me as his mother. And if you don’t think that is a challenge – remember I am his Asian mother. What the hell do I know about being a black man? #LetThatSoakIn
I am raising one of the most confident, strong-willed, go make your dreams a reality natural hair growing daughter to chase her dreams. And, yet again, I am her Asian mother – with very white hair. What the hell do I know about managing 4B-4C natural hair? #LetThatSoakIn
I am creating a community for Single Mothers to thrive, live, be loved, and honor who they are from the inside out alongside other Single Mothers who cherish them, support them and never knock them down. #SingleMother20+Years
And I have connected with some of the strongest, hard-working, loving mothers the world needs to know. #SingleMomsAreHeros
What could I possibly be sitting on this couch in a funk. Everything I’ve ever wanted is right here…. in front of me.
My world is unraveling before my eyes – my dream is coming true – my life is great….I created this amazing life.
Yet – funk sets in. You want to know why?
Because it’s normal for us to get so enraptured in the day to day work that we forgot to stop. Look around and be grateful and LOVE THE CRAP OUT OF OURSELVES.
I am exactly where I am supposed to be and I am OK with that because I live a ridiculously amazing life. #YouFeelMe
SOOOOOOOO – as I sit here now. Eating this Magnum Double Caramel Ice Cream (shhhh – don’t tell) – I am declaring that I am a M.I.L.F (thanks Fergie).
Yes – I am a Mother I’d Like to Follow. Hell — you are a M.I.L.F — cause I want to know YOU too!
I am in love with myself. I am successfully rocking the sh*t out of this Single Mother + Building a Sisterhood of Single Mothers + killing it in my zone of genius.
You see. You can get mad if you want to. That is your choice. My dreams are not your dreams and your dreams are not mine. #Respect
I honor and respect you just as you are and I ask that you do the same for me. #BlindSideInspiredQuote
And if you are mad or you are asking yourself – “who does she think she is?” – then I invite you to ask yourself:
When was the last time you looked yourself in the eyes in the mirror and said I LOVE YOU (and meant it)?
When was the last time you made a gratitude list?
When was the last time you made a list of all things that make your heart and soul happy (and did them)?
When was the last time you stopped to take credit for EVERYTHING you have done (and said – HELL YEAH, I DID THAT)?
If you are reading this, you are supposed to be. Know that I adore you – you mean something to me – and I want you to hit the PAUSE button. BREATHE IN. BREATHE OUT.
And BLOW YOUR OWN HORN — BRAG — CELEBRATE who you are and know that I celebrate you too. I want your dreams to come true. I want you to live a ridiculously amazing life too. I want you to frolick in your own love, happiness, and joy.
With glitter & gratitude my dahlings,